Ne vem, meni je bilo bolj hudo lani, ko je umrl moj brat. Dokler smo pa živi in zdravi, mi ne fali nč..
Iskreno sožalje
Najprej sm jezna na cel svet in je vse narobe, nezadovoljna sama s sabo in vsemi okol mene, pol pa preberem nekaj takega, kot je napisala Carmina... In se počutm ko največji kreten, da se bunim zarad faksa, dnarja ki ga morm dat za avto avto (kar sm si čist sama kriva) pa izgublenega potovanja in počitnic... Ne sam da me zrealizira en tak stavek v trenutku, ampak mi rata nerodn, kak BUM delam iz problema, ki sploh ne bi bil problem če bi v preteklosti js sama sprejela drugačne odločitve oz. reagirala drugače. Kak je včasih težk sprejet, da si za tričetrt problemov, ki jih maš, čist in popolnoma sam kriv, da jih maš.
Ni fer, da nas življenje včasih tak testira... ampak jaz na svojem testu ne bom padla - vsem bom dokazala, da sem odločna, da se ne bom vdala in da true love conquers all
Ja res, preizkušnje v lajfu... včasih so tak ne fer, da lahko doktoriraš iz vprašanj
Why? Why me? Why now?... pri meni je še posebno izpostavljeno
Why me... AGAIN??? In bol ko študiraš, na konč že ne veš več al je fer al ni, al se je "mogl" zgodit kar se je al ne, al je to res tvoj test da se pogledaš v špegu in vidiš v njem pravo sliko al ne... Nism ravn nek zagovornik usode, ampak še vseen si poskušam dopovedat, kadar mi je ful hudo, da kar se je zgodil, je mel nek vzrok in da je ta vzrok bil del mojega lajfa, kake bodo pa posledice, pa je odvisn od tega, kak bom situacijo sprejela.
Lej, če je true love, pol ni druge varjante sploh kot pa to, da ostane in obstaja, pol ni nič kar se ne da premagat, NIČ. Eni pravjo, da je to idealistično, sam js vseen pravim, da je to ena in edina resnica na svetu. Js sm vedn verjela v to in še vedno verjamem, ni živega boga da me prepriča nasprotn. Everything will be OK in the end... if it´s not OK now, it´s not the end! Pr men je tk, vsaj kar se tiče true love, da sta dve skrajnosti, al sm srečna tk da mi je svet pravljica al pa boli tk, da če bi me avtobus zbil, bi se mi zdel smešn neboleče. Osredotoč se na to, kak bo lepo, ko se stvari iztečejo na pozitivno. Kr če je true love, se bodo!
Mogoč je tole čist OT, sam morm prlimat, whatever, a nista ful dobri?
The Thousandth Man
One man in a thousand, Solomon says,
Will stick more close than a brother.
And it's worth while seeking him half your days
If you find him before the other.
Nine hundred and ninety-nine depend
On what the world sees in you,
But the Thousandth man will stand your friend
With the whole round world agin you.
'Tis neither promise nor prayer nor show
Will settle the finding for 'ee.
Nine hundred and ninety-nine of 'em go
By your looks, or your acts, or your glory.
But if he finds you and you find him.
The rest of the world don't matter;
For the Thousandth Man will sink or swim
With you in any water.
You can use his purse with no more talk
Than he uses yours for his spendings,
And laugh and meet in your daily walk
As though there had been no lendings.
Nine hundred and ninety-nine of 'em call
For silver and gold in their dealings;
But the Thousandth Man h's worth 'em all,
Because you can show him your feelings.
His wrong's your wrong, and his right's your right,
In season or out of season.
Stand up and back it in all men's sight -
With that for your only reason!
Nine hundred and ninety-nine can't bide
The shame or mocking or laughter,
But the Thousandth Man will stand by your side
To the gallows-foot -- and after!
I Measure Every Grief
I measure every grief I meet
With analytic eyes;
I wonder if it weighs like mine,
Or has an easier size.
I wonder if they bore it long,
Or did it just begin?
I could not tell the date of mine,
It feels so old a pain.
I wonder if it hurts to live,
And if they have to try,
And whether, could they choose between,
They would not rather die.